Disclaimer: this post is not aimed at anyone but is just a self reflection.
the above disclaimer is for those who are not called Taiyong, who have stumbled upon this blog accidentally or incidentally.

ok so here goes.

i finally am starting to understand a maker's heart. Thank God for those people who want to cherish what i give them by not using them. :D

As a designer and maker for that matter of fact, i think what one designer would like to see is people enjoying their work of art by putting it to good use. Instead of treating it like a white elephant.

would be the same from God's point of view i suppose. He designed us the way we are. Some with good bodies, great look, superb leadership skills, quick mind. We are like pieces of moving art pieces and designs. Likewise, He would want us to fully utilise and "show off" the talents He had given us. admitedly, i have failed to nurture the talent of the academics. Now i can understand to the littlest depths how much it pains God to under-develope and utilise what he had given us.

Life's so full of irony.
If i am close to sumone, when he/she give me a gift, i will never use it cos i will cherish it.
if i plan to be remain close with that person, i might never need to cherish that gift, cos the person will always be giving me gifts, rite? so that means i should be using what that person give me. Right? On the other hand, if i choose not to remain close to a person, what for cherish the gift he/she gives? before long, i might need to change my name to garang guni if so. haha.

Likewise, if i do not use my talents for God, i might as well use it for myself rite? It would be a waste for all these gifts from God to have gone fully under utilised.Afterall, just like the parable fo the talents, those that have more, will be given more. God will be there to help me nurture these talents He had planted in me. There is no fear that by using my talents, i will finish using all my talents. haha.

but i guess if someone close to me, anyone, were to give me anything sentimental, i might not use it too. haha. oh well, its just an insight the was put into me, of how i should realli put my life at it's max capacity, so that when i were ever to die young, i wont regret the way i live my life when i meet God.

Plan your life like it will last a hundred years, live your life as if today were your last.

The WORST way to be misunderstood is to know abt it but be unable to explain oneself. yet.

think i am a lousy brother as of until now.
this is a feeling i dont wanna experience again.
lousy challenge i took up.

lousy lousy lousy lousy lousy.

its starting to get obvious isnt it, that people would rather be shooting their mouths, criticising, rather than giving constructive solutions. That might even be the way i work. or, issit just human beings.

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when there is a pathement with just grass patches beside, people complain that there are no trees to shelter from the sun, no sceneries. So, the government will start to plant trees beside the pathement.

The trees then started to grow up. the wind blows, and the leaves scatter all over the pavement. people start to complain again abt slipping when stepping on the leaves. So, the government have to employ sweepers to sweep the leaves.

Over the years the tree grew and grew. Some birds and insects start to build their nests on the trees. over time, the trunks could not bear the weight and some fall onto the pavements. So, the people complain, and the governemtn have to get people to chop off the braches and remove the insects nests. Not forgetting the sweepers.

Over the next few years, not only the tree trunks grew, the roots grew too and soon, the pavement is being broken to pieces from underneath. people again start to complain that they might fall down. So, the trees have to be removed. New pathments were built.

The government wasted their money, workers lose their jobs, but the people that complain; they are happy. they just want new trees to beautify the grass patches beside the pathements.

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please, tell me the don'ts, WHILE TELLING ME THE DO's

i am being looked upon as a bias guy, cos mebbe in the first place, i am. But, no one else other than them 2 are willing to be in this together.

no wonder people hate being not appreciated. tell me why am i feeling so. if only messages are like boomerang that at least return.i am so sick of this. gah, waste of my sms'es when u have to send one message to ask a question and than another to actually demand a reply. the fact that many look at big problems while overlooking the small root problems, its just an ill reality of the life we live.. and i dislike explaining myself, though i dislike even more to be misunderstood.

more so, i dislike people saying one thing and doing another. Leave that person alone wont u? Now, u're making everyone look beneathe your sincerity and wonder if u are the same person we knew...

and i hate dilemmas. cos i am in one now. first time i will be going to pon a lecture for a judo match starring my 6 years of buddies. am i throwing my christian morales away? if only i could die today and not make a decision. If Jeremiah is a weeping prophet, than i will be a christian who will wish God take away my like, now that i am in deep waters.

on a side note, i went out for the first few times this year with my classmates, james jiawen and alex, to eat ramen at crystal jade, partially cos no one was available for lunch, but realli had a goood time of food and talk. jiawen treated me quite abit of course. haha. its good to have good and fun-loving classmates :D though they might not be alwaes ard nor as close, there is this superficiality i could put up once again. ok mebbe its oblivion. i dont and wont noe them, i think, on a deeper basis than now already. There are things which i can overlook in strong but not close frenship as such.