no wonder people hate being not appreciated. tell me why am i feeling so. if only messages are like boomerang that at least return.i am so sick of this. gah, waste of my sms'es when u have to send one message to ask a question and than another to actually demand a reply. the fact that many look at big problems while overlooking the small root problems, its just an ill reality of the life we live.. and i dislike explaining myself, though i dislike even more to be misunderstood.

more so, i dislike people saying one thing and doing another. Leave that person alone wont u? Now, u're making everyone look beneathe your sincerity and wonder if u are the same person we knew...

and i hate dilemmas. cos i am in one now. first time i will be going to pon a lecture for a judo match starring my 6 years of buddies. am i throwing my christian morales away? if only i could die today and not make a decision. If Jeremiah is a weeping prophet, than i will be a christian who will wish God take away my like, now that i am in deep waters.

on a side note, i went out for the first few times this year with my classmates, james jiawen and alex, to eat ramen at crystal jade, partially cos no one was available for lunch, but realli had a goood time of food and talk. jiawen treated me quite abit of course. haha. its good to have good and fun-loving classmates :D though they might not be alwaes ard nor as close, there is this superficiality i could put up once again. ok mebbe its oblivion. i dont and wont noe them, i think, on a deeper basis than now already. There are things which i can overlook in strong but not close frenship as such.