Living life on earth, there are millions of other things better to be than a christian. The demands of living up to a certain image, that when teacher press for my 'religion', i am always relunctant to say i am a christian who has an existing relationship with God, reason being, my results do not reflect my princely status.

right now, i feel at peace, amidst the storm. But this is a wierd feeling of peace. Its like shelter in the storm. However, when i look out of the shelter, i will almost instantly forget about my safe refuge and start to worry abt the storm. Thats how bad the storm is. Looks like a hail storm or even a hurricane.

i still feel like i would rather be:
- an insect that people could crush and die instantly
- a cattle or poultry, a lamb, that is living just for the sake of dying, that all, without forcing the brain to work much
- accidentally in the middle of the road in the face of an oncoming lorry accelerating so fast that when it reaches me, i would be deflected to heaven without feeling any pain.
- an eagle soaring high above the clouds, looking for my next prey instead of being a prey myself; prey to the worries of exams.

in conclusion, i would rather be in heaven now.

my fren said sth which was quite funny but yet, true for me.

"If life were a computer game, than SAJC(A levels) would be the final big boss.".
Looks like its the case for me now.

you know, even my body is getting accustomed to minimal sleep that even though i am very tired, the average number of hours of sleep my body can take is up to 4 or 5 hours. more than that and i cant sleep.

the bad thing is, upon waking up, its even more tiring, yet cannot fall into deep sleep again.

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anyway, was pondering over the entry that samsom put up. Its realli quite true that we do not see much of the prophetic ministry now a days.

i wonder, what defines the authority and role of a modern day prophet?