long absence from this blog, but i was actually gathering my question marks during this period. Guess the answering of my questions sorta start recently when my heart is more after Him.

Thank God for TaiYong for the Godly advice regarding relationships and the academic support at least in maths and prayers, in preparation for my A levels. And also the prayer that you guys put it. I would not have been so without all your prayers.

thanks also for brothers and sisters in Christ whom got me back to children ministry. Tried to siam from it after A levels so that i can relax for awhile but, hey, guess i am back for good again, and it realli feels good. Dont think i will drop it in army, cos by far, its the only ministry that realli refrained me of the things of the world like vulgarities and lust, when i think that whatever i am will be transfered over to my kids in sunday sku.

YPM camp - UNITED

I really thank God for this camp. This theme is sth i think is much lacking in YPM even among the cell groups and within the cell groups itself, for one, its LEVI, that is, between the younger members like me, and the more lao jiao like the leaders aaron and melvyn. Even though the original cell members only got me, rachel, mandia, aaron and melvyn, and that both of the last 2 names have to keep running abt cos they are in camp com, i was rather thankful to be able to play a part in cell bonding, and that at the end of the camp, many of the other members have at least visited us. For this camp, i sorta played the glue, trying to hold whatever group we have, cos it realli consisted of alot of newer members. The challange therefore, was for me rachel and mandia, not to talk too much amongst the 3 of us but rather, involve the rest of the group.

In this camp, my skeptism realli got into me somehow. Especially during praise and worship. There are some things that i cannot reconcile with and its that sometimes, worship leaders(i shall not name names, but its NOT you, samson) try to lead using their own strength, instead of just leading by example of worship. On one hand, i have to give worship leaders respect cos i agree God allowed them to be up there and that i myself am not even daring enough to be in this minitry, yet, it gets realli irritating when the worship leader tries to RARA the crowd and when the crowd is no RARA-ed, the worship leader shows undivine disappointment and feel incompetent. So, when such a person is up there leading worship, it is usually the main reason why i should not give my all. However, when i told God this, for the rest of the camp when other worship leaders lead, i still did not gave 100% and i know, for sure, that worship is not abt the worship leader. Yes, worship leaders can be catalyst, but worship has to come from myself. ya? ya.

on the whole, the camp was a relaxing and good experience. Camp food was good, schedule was not tight, company was cool. I hope YPM camps walk the cell group themes for some years at least.

Some Afterthoughts

hey taiyong, remember the talk on the bus yesterday, abt us having the rare disipline/experience of liking a girl but not pursuing a relationship, it sorta hit me realli hard on the thinking part jsut now cos i realised that sometimes, had it not been the not-enough-courage, or the gal-never-take-initiative, i would have been attached since long time ago. Its not a discipline i trained myself, but rather looking back, its realli God's grace and timing.