Went to planet shakers concert yesterday. Praise was good, but i was jumping ard in my birkenstocks when i had this bad feeling that my birks might break. It distracted me qutie abit for praise time. Than, i decided that even if my birks were to break, i will still wanna praise God! well, but that dosent mean my birks wont break, so i decided to jump and praise God bare-footed.
Came worship. i think we were singing the song 'Evermore', when i lifted my hands, and before i knew it, i was crying out to God, calling, "Jesus! Jesus! Jesus!". This had never happened to me before, at such a fast pace that i dint even knew what i was doing. The tears fell of course, but i dunno why. i felt relieved, but i also dunno relieved of what, cos i was still to a certain extend, and still am, quite burdened. I just felt lighter. Inside me. Its the feeling that like i am pleasing God. But much disernment is still needed.
Thats for planet shakers. A sister in Christ from my cca brought her non-christian classmate/s along. Made me realise more and more than i haven been into my ministry in school. The burden of doing well in studies as a testimony for God realli left me quite useless in other areas of ministry, esp outreach. Pray for new fire for my school ministry, even though there is not much time left, precisely why i should buck up.
Few weeks ago, went to Mike Cornel's deliverence service. Sth i dint write down on my other blog was that i actually went up for all the altar calls. better safe than sorry. Altar call for generational curses, martial arts involvement, sexual sins which includes stray thoughts, i was up for all altar calls. Generational curses, i dunno, but a few of my family members had dies due to same reasons - car crash, though it was before i was borned. Martial arts involvement- judo. Sexual sins- i dunno, 4 years of guys school, to a certain extend, even the purest of human heart will be tinted. i wasnt sure.
During one of the altar calls, this guy from the deliverence team came over. placed his hand on my forehead. i spake forgiveness and repentence and lifted up my hands. than i induced coughing- a signification of ousting breathe/air- something spirits are liken to in the Word. Than, the coughing got out of control and i broke into loud and violent coughing, felt like being choked. My whole face numbed and i started salivating. Fingers stiffen and i could only call out to Jesus to help me. All these while, my mind was conscious, but i could'nt bring myself to control some of my body functions, esp the salivating part. All i could do was to suck in my saliva, but the saliva kept forming. In the end, i recovered to my sane self. i am not sure if its the result of such a service, but that night's QT, i was able to concentrate better.
If God really want me in this ministry, theres alot of things i realli have to do. like memorising His word, or even start to realise His will and purpose, get a life partner that encourages and help in this ministry, which of course, demands alot of seeking for God's will on my part. On top of all these, i realli need to get myself right with God. That day at City Harvest during the deliverence service, the manifestations could easily went up to 3 digits, the number of people who were delivered that is. Not the same for the spirits that were oust. One of my frens saw gaseous elements coming out from one body. There is a high probablilty there is more than one spirit that is influencing each person. And if they can come out, they can go in again. which means that my shield have to be impenetratable. This one, i need alot of prayers; to be focused in seeking Him only. Many things are distracting me now.
oh well, but it might not come to be that i may be part of this ministry till eons later. God's will.
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a random tot: i think it would be nice to get married very early and be a nice cool funky dad(and husband too). i saw this daddy with coloured hair, nicely styleswith his wife of course, and a young kid.. marriage bliss. haa. but i foresee alot of problems. BUt, its sth to pray for.
Came worship. i think we were singing the song 'Evermore', when i lifted my hands, and before i knew it, i was crying out to God, calling, "Jesus! Jesus! Jesus!". This had never happened to me before, at such a fast pace that i dint even knew what i was doing. The tears fell of course, but i dunno why. i felt relieved, but i also dunno relieved of what, cos i was still to a certain extend, and still am, quite burdened. I just felt lighter. Inside me. Its the feeling that like i am pleasing God. But much disernment is still needed.
Thats for planet shakers. A sister in Christ from my cca brought her non-christian classmate/s along. Made me realise more and more than i haven been into my ministry in school. The burden of doing well in studies as a testimony for God realli left me quite useless in other areas of ministry, esp outreach. Pray for new fire for my school ministry, even though there is not much time left, precisely why i should buck up.
Few weeks ago, went to Mike Cornel's deliverence service. Sth i dint write down on my other blog was that i actually went up for all the altar calls. better safe than sorry. Altar call for generational curses, martial arts involvement, sexual sins which includes stray thoughts, i was up for all altar calls. Generational curses, i dunno, but a few of my family members had dies due to same reasons - car crash, though it was before i was borned. Martial arts involvement- judo. Sexual sins- i dunno, 4 years of guys school, to a certain extend, even the purest of human heart will be tinted. i wasnt sure.
During one of the altar calls, this guy from the deliverence team came over. placed his hand on my forehead. i spake forgiveness and repentence and lifted up my hands. than i induced coughing- a signification of ousting breathe/air- something spirits are liken to in the Word. Than, the coughing got out of control and i broke into loud and violent coughing, felt like being choked. My whole face numbed and i started salivating. Fingers stiffen and i could only call out to Jesus to help me. All these while, my mind was conscious, but i could'nt bring myself to control some of my body functions, esp the salivating part. All i could do was to suck in my saliva, but the saliva kept forming. In the end, i recovered to my sane self. i am not sure if its the result of such a service, but that night's QT, i was able to concentrate better.
If God really want me in this ministry, theres alot of things i realli have to do. like memorising His word, or even start to realise His will and purpose, get a life partner that encourages and help in this ministry, which of course, demands alot of seeking for God's will on my part. On top of all these, i realli need to get myself right with God. That day at City Harvest during the deliverence service, the manifestations could easily went up to 3 digits, the number of people who were delivered that is. Not the same for the spirits that were oust. One of my frens saw gaseous elements coming out from one body. There is a high probablilty there is more than one spirit that is influencing each person. And if they can come out, they can go in again. which means that my shield have to be impenetratable. This one, i need alot of prayers; to be focused in seeking Him only. Many things are distracting me now.
oh well, but it might not come to be that i may be part of this ministry till eons later. God's will.
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a random tot: i think it would be nice to get married very early and be a nice cool funky dad(and husband too). i saw this daddy with coloured hair, nicely styleswith his wife of course, and a young kid.. marriage bliss. haa. but i foresee alot of problems. BUt, its sth to pray for.
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